Letting Go

Just like the popular song from Frozen I just need to 'Let it Go'. Well, actually I need to let Isabelle go. Next week will be her first week of school and I know for a fact she is ready to do this on her own. I don't know what I fear most, her going to school or me not knowing what to do with my time. I have gotten so used to the job of teaching her and maintaining the household that it will be unusual to have a few free moments.

I imagine what I will be doing with my two free mornings. Since she will be going to school Tuesday and Thursday 9-130 that gives me 4 1/2 hrs to get something done. The list I have prepared goes on for pages and pages. Most of it includes things like the dentist and finally getting a picture framed. All the things that I couldn't get done while dragging Belle around. I wonder if I will just skip the list and sit at a coffee shop staring out the window while drooling and relishing the moment of time where I am not required to interact or think.

While I do feel a small tear that she is growing up I am also loving it! She has turned into the most amazing little person I could have imagined. The things that do bother me about not being by her side are the normal fears. For example, what if she can't make friends? What if they tease her? Will her teacher be as nice to her when I am not around? I guess it's a control issue. I have been in complete control of what she is exposed to for the past 3 years and now I have to trust someone else to assist me. Once again I solve my issues by writing them out.

Please pray for Isabelle to love her new time away and let her continue to grow in a positive light!

Sara