Tired

Why didn't anybody tell me how hard it was to get a baby to go to sleep? I understand the constant feeding and being up all night with that but being up because she won't sleep?? Someone should take out a billboard ad so all moms know in advance. Maybe it's one of those taboo things that only new parents find out the hard way...

When I google: My baby won't sleep/maybe baby hates sleeping/how to get my baby to nap/my baby cries the minute I put her down, I get a ton of information. It seems that everyone has gone through this. I guess that is why there are so many books and gadgets promises new parents sleep if they by their product. 

Honestly I would pay anything right now for her to sleep longer than 45 min at a time during the day. Let the bargaining begin. Belle you can have a Porche when you turn 16 if you promise to nap during the day...

At night, for the past week, she has been sleeping pretty descent so I really cannot complain. The problem is that I have so much 'new mom' anxiety that I find it impossible to quite my mind enough to take advantage of her sleeping. In my logical thoughts I know that a missing classical music every once in awhile won't scar her for life but let's be real. I haven't been logical since the day she was born. The lack of sleep perpetuates illogical thoughts. I cry every day at some point. 

I know that I need to chill out. Starting tomorrow bright and early when Belle wakes up, around 5 am, I plan to feed her and then go out for a walk. Hopefully this will help relieve some stress and maybe calm me down enough to calm her down to sleep. ahhhhh..... 

Off to try and sleep. Out look doesn't look promising at all as I sit here typing staring at the video monitor of Belle tossing and turning with her eyes wide open. 

Tchau,

Sara